old status achieved

I had a rough week.  I dropped the ball on something important at work four months ago so my second home has been super not fun.  On top of that, I ran into some small money woes that won't be resolved until next month and I've been trying to quit smoking (it's cool, I'll try again next week).  Let's just say that I really needed to get out.

I went to a show on Thursday night and somehow managed to get through a whole Friday on three hours of sleep.  I seriously don't know how I used to pull that shit damn near every night for years.  What I'd do for just a taste of the energy I had in my early 20's, if even just to manage the cleanliness of the house.

AMIT was sooooooooooo worth it though!

Friday evening consisted of a surprise visit with my stepbrother who had a long ass layover at DIA (so awesome!) and one stop at a girlfriend's birthday party.  No booze, just exhaustion and a smidgen of Mary Jane and I ended up having to be driven home before making it to the second show I had planned on attending.  Don't look at me like that, its legal here... and seriously, who can dance to reggae without a little help?

It hit me as I was putting on my pj's and considering the wiseness of throwing in Game of Thrones.  I.  Am.  Old.

Gone are the times of having so much shit to do that I don't have time for real sleep for two days or more.  Gone are the last call blues.  Gone are after parties and the need to feel so utterly involved in a lifestyle that staying in one night gives me panic attacks.

Enter hangoverless awakenings in the actual morning.  Enter having a real breakfast before morning hikes with my girlfriends.  Enter cleaning up after the tornado of destruction that is a three year old when he's not even home in preparation for snuggling him for the rest of our weekend together.

Life changes so rapidly without you even noticing.  You get older, find hobbies that don't involve copious amounts of vodka and new boys, and if you're lucky, hold onto some amazing people to share that with... maybe even make a one or two.

At this moment, chain smoking on the front step in my pj's, I can honestly say I am content.  My life isn't perfect, but I built it myself, away from the smouldering ruins of my earlier years.  I can wave at the hot mess that I used to be and remember the good times with nostalgia, but I don't have to hang with her ever again.

31 > 29-, brah.  In B4 Last Call Crew 4 Lyfe!