that

I am in search of something.

You think you know what it is that I'm looking for, but I'm pretty sure you're wrong.  I think anyway... I'm not 100% on this.

I can list a million moments where I'm sure... so fleeting that I can't even nail down what it is that I think I saw.  

Lavishing in a sunrise after a night that was supposed to end early
Dancing your heart out to something hauntingly beautiful
Crunching through sparkly snow, while it falls so lazily and quietly around you

Admiring a million diamonds in the sky while laying on a dirt road cutting through the desert

Sunlight filtered through soft, shiny hair

Watching the ocean, tangled up in someone you adore

Rain falling through the sunlight of late afternoon
The perfect sunset, drenched in pink and orange, caught from somewhere high

Laying under the trees, staring at the sun screened by a million green leaves
Warm bodies snuggled under a quilt during the coldest part of winter

The final approach to a distant city where someone you love spends their days

Rain tapping the top of your tent in the early morning

Your son's eyelashes, all lush in sleep
This song:

Tycho - A Walk

And this one:

Skream - Perferated

Those briefest of moments that you wish would never end.  Where that deep, dark hole in the pit of your heart feels so completely full that it may very well burst.  And then it does.

It's not joy.  It's not contentment.  It's not love.  It is all of those, rolled up with sadness... and so much more.

That.  I'm looking for that.